Poetry

Shadow in the Mirror

written by: OurSacredHonor

I've lost my will, I've lost my way
I just stopped being me when I went away
I don't know why but I've lost myself
I don't know how but I'm someone else
I've come back now and hate what I see
A shadow in the mirror staring back at me

It seems so strange
This change
That occurred
While my vision was blurred
In the blink of an eye
By the whirlwind of life passing me by
In a flash
It's in the past
And I've lost control
I'm not whole
How did I let this happen?
My life's collapsing
All around
Crumbling to the ground
My head pounds
Echoing with the sound
Of reverberations
Of conversations
That should've gone differently
But because this has affected me
As I went along
It all went wrong
Little by little it was falling apart
I should've seen it coming from the very start
But I refused to open my eyes
I just hid on the inside
And now I've lost that part
I so desperately sought to protect in my heart
Now it's gone, I've lost it
My foolishness cost me it
I keep playing these games
It all ends up the same
With me hanging my head in shame
And my emotions and pride are the ones to get maimed

I've lost my will, I've lost my way
I just stopped being me when I went away
I don't know why but I've lost myself
I don't know how but I'm someone else
I've come back now and hate what I see
A shadow in the mirror staring back at me

Somebody help to change me back
I need to regain what I lack
I've lost sight of the real me
Created a distorted reality
Which I've lived in for too long
I've grown weak while trying to grow strong
I don't belong anymore
Not while I'm empty in the core
Of my being
With everybody seeing
This shell of my former self
Walk around and talking to everybody else
Like nothing's wrong at all
But in actuality this wall
I've created has destroyed my interior
And this new me is inferior
Better off as a lightning rod
Cuz all my real friends see right through the facade
I need to break
Through this fake
Opaque
Other me and shake
It off and recover, there's too much at stake
I can't get caught in the wake
Of the tidal wave
I gotta save
Myself
The hand is dealt
The pain's been felt
And I've got nothing else

I've lost my will, I've lost my way
I just stopped being me when I went away
I don't know why but I've lost myself
I don't know how but I'm someone else
I've come back now and hate what I see
A shadow in the mirror staring back at me

My mind races binary
Everything's contrary
Ones and zeros
No heroes
Just fear those
Who oppose
It's like a virus infested in me
Intellectually
Deep into my thought process
This nonsense
Keeps holding me down, holding me back
Can't stop now, I've gotta react
Quick like the flash
A whiplash
Tearing through the barrier
Into restricted areas
These words are the carrier
It just keeps getting scarier
Day in and day out
Trying to determine exactly what this is about
Until my thoughts run dry like a drought
But I haven't a doubt
In this mind
Of mine
That in time
I'll be able to define
Just exactly
What this life for me
Is meant to be
Just wait, you'll see
It'll become clearer
As the future's drawing nearer
The shadows will fade
Until the shine of the blade
Becomes a bright
White light
In clear sight
You can't fight what's right
Or what's meant to happen
This world that seemed to be collapsing
Was just an illusion
Meant to cause confusion
To throw me off, screw me up, bend me out of shape, and push my buttons
But when all is said and done, it'll have changed nothing
Solid as a rock, without a flaw
Same as before, and just as raw
To the core of my being
What you get is what you're seeing
At first, it was just suspected
Then the affect was detected
So now I've been resurrected
Corrected
The change is reversed
I'm rid of this curse
That had infested me
And tested me
Once more I can be true
To me and you
About myself and what I do
I can continue to pursue
These broken dreams
I'll mend the seems
Repair the tear
That has been there
For so long
It was so wrong
But now the aftershock has passed
At last
The past is in the past

Regained my will, rediscovered my way
I can be me again, I start today
It took some time but I've found myself
I wouldn't wanna be anybody else
I've come back now and will continue to be
Just the man in the mirror staring back at me

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