Poetry

Lacking

written by: OurSacredHonor

Should I just go until I crash?
Run myself ragged, or just let it pass
Can't fall asleep, can't stay awake
Because inside there's too much hate
I've lost my soul, I've lost control
My heart's become this gaping hole
I hate myself, what I've become
I used to have dreams, now I have none
I've thrown away, reckless disregard
For those around me, I fell hard
I'm laying face first in the dirt
I didn't know how much this would hurt
To lose everyone because I failed
I tried so hard but to no avail
I've come this far and I can't turn back
But I still can't find the things I lack
I'm missing something I don't know what
People say I'm sharp so I get cut
I bleed my lies, disguise the truth
All my life searching for some proof
That my existence has some meaning
That my life's not just what I'm seeing
Falling apart in front of me
I pray there's more than what I see
If there's not there's no way out
No matter how much I scream and shout
I'm in too deep, I've lost my way
Night promises another day
I'll wake up, or at least I hope
And with this hell I'll try to cope
I'll try to fix everything that's wrong
Why wasn't I there all along?
It could've been great, it should've been wonderful
It would've been if I hadn't been a selfish fool
Now everything is calm, I've learned my lesson
The world keeps turning, I'll keep on guessing
This life of mine, they say I lead
I'm not fit to yet I must proceed
Continue on down this lonesome road
Carrying this heavy load
On my shoulders, and on my mind
Searching for something that I can't find
So I'll lose myself, but I don't want to lose you
So please don't let me end up missing you too