Poetry

X Factor

written by: OurSacredHonor

I am the x factor
like a nuclear reactor
churning out energy
from anger towards my enemies
Formulate
Strength from hate
Anticipate
The weight
That will be placed
On me, what I will have to face
I'm yet to see, this burden
That'll have me hurtin
In the near future
There's nothing I can do here
But keep up the struggle, keep up the fight
Live through the day, live through the night
I have my sites set
But I've yet
To move I'm stuck in place
A disgrace
To myself
No one else
Can help me know, I'm alone
Scared to move, scared to go home
Scared to pick up the phone
Scared of the dial tone
Scared of everything I want to be
Scared of everything I can't see
All this fear with in me will make me suffer
I've held back to long, behind this buffer
That I used to protect myself from the outside
Now it's obstructing me, keeping me on the inside
So while I sit on the sideline
Watching the sands of time
My life falls apart
This pain on my heart
Causes it break
Into pieces, too much to take
For god's sake
One mistake
And it ends like this?
One swing, one miss
And it's over, the end
No chance to mend
It's broken, I'm done
It's over, time's won