Poetry

Guilt

written by: Daniel91

You were my enemy for five long years
It seemed like no matter what I did you knew my fears
You were the cool kid and I was the kid that nobody care about
So you made fun of me constantly which out me in a world of self-doubt

You made my life hell
I was so scared of you I just into a shell
Until I realize that you were my living breathing twin
Now I wonder on what made us different and what we could have been

Why was given the gift to open my heart to a total stranger
While you were given nothing but a grin in the face of danger
I knew this for years and yet I still watched you throw it all away
Now I feel so guilty and I'm lost and I know longer know the way

Could it just be that I was never different from you
Was me being the hero of the story never really true
Am I just as cold and heartless?
Is it too late from being swallowed by the darkness?

I just don't know who I am anymore
I always dreamed of being since I was four
But I screwed that up what God had gave me
Could his forgiveness be my key?

For forgiving myself for not being the hero you needed
You never knew this but I know how much with God you pleaded
About how you never deserve to be born into your hell on earth
I know how it feels like to have to constantly prove to your parents your worth

All I ask now is why am I on the good side
When I know in my heart I have evil in my soul which resides
And yet you make me feel like I could be the hero of the hour
Is it because I know how love is the ultimate power