Poetry

COLD!

written by: Lucious Love

20 years old and my heart has gone cold, all i have left for you is strife, i'll carry it in my heart for the rest of my life.

Struggling in relationships, and hateing men, you should have been there;but you were busy then. Nothing could keep you from your new wife, even though you knew she took her own mothers life.

Where were you at when i was sexually assualted? You should have been their daddy, but you were too busy being exhualted by your friends and colleagues too, where were you daddy? I needed you!

When i went to you for help, you asked me what it was about? You would rather just give me money, aint love funny, you told me i was a smart girl i'd figure something out. You always took the easy route. I wanted to cry he raped me! But my cries for help you didnt hear or see. Because you were too busy being a father to everyone else but me.

Alcohol was my best friend, and sex was a crutch that kept me in touch with who i thought i was. I realized quickly it was all just a buzz. But God had a plan and kept protecting me like thorns protect a rose. He kept me safe until i gave up all three of those.

So tell me, why do you want to be in my life now? After leaving me at 11months old, now 20 years later my heart has gone cold. You cant tell me how to live, and i dont want your advice,my heart is as solid as ice. Apparently you didnt care then, you never thought twice; i dont care now, so stay out of my life.You and your wife!

I have artic pain that runs through my vein, im frost bitten with flowing tears of freezing rain!

20 years old my heart has gone cold, all i have left for you is strife...Im carrying it in my heart through out my life.