Poetry

Repercussions

written by: OurSacredHonor

Distraught in the darkness for days and days
Searching for ways to just run away
Because I can never find the words to say
To express to you why I'm not ok
I can't grasp these thoughts that flee from me
Endlessly I try to see
But the shadows of my mind consume unconsciously
I try to release this anger from within
But I can't find where to begin
As the frustration sets in
And eats away at the core
More and more
Til I fall and hit the floor
A silent scream escapes my thoughts
And what I've been taught
Doesn't matter anymore
I'm bruised and battered, achy and sore
I can't go on, I can't take it anymore
I've lost my will, I've lost the fight
I've lost the trust of friends in the middle of the night
It starts to take control of me
Subconsciously
As I lose my grip
And the seams rip
And the table tips
And turns
And my eyes burn
I didn't learn
I didn't listen
I didn't know what I was missing
I know that I've lost it all
And hit the wall
I fall and crawl
And lie in a heap of broken tears and shattered dreams
Because it turns out nothing was as it seemed
I couldn't see through it
So I never knew it
Was gonna be the end of me
But now that I see
I can finally
Acknowledge the fact that I lost me
In the darkness
Of where my heart is
Shallow and cold
I'm destined to be empty inside as I grow old
And as time tick tocks away
Each of my days
At least now I can say
I did it to myself
It was my own fault
I destroyed it all
For no reason
Because I didn't believe in
Everything that was real
I didn't feel
And now it's over
And everything goes numb
And everything goes black
There's no turning back
I've failed my goals
I've lost control
I've begun my journey into the depths of my soul
Black as coal
Cold as ice
But I'm the one who's guilty and I deserve to pay the price

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