Poetry

My Mistake

written by: Tigressarah

As I wake in the morning, and reach for him,I encounter empty air.

The bed beside me is barely warm, telling me he was there.

I clutch his pillow to my face, to catch his lingering scent.

Faintly, but there, it reminds me that his time with me was only lent.

His heart never belonged to me, I was only dreaming of what could be.

I fooled myself by letting my heart see what it wanted to see.

I borrowed his time and affection, while pretending both were mine,

Refusing to think about the time when I must leave him behind.

Knowing now, the time is near, I shed only one tear.

For this hell was one of my own making,

I continued to give knowing he was only taking.

I allowed myself to fall, wrapped up in wishes and prayers,

I let it go farther that I should have dared.

I thought he would love me, and see what he had,

But all he could see was what he thought was bad.

He never even gave me the opportunity,

To show him all that we could be.

Instead, he closed up, and shut me out,

And left me alone to wonder about.

Now I'm looking for love again,

Back to the spot from which I began.

But the next time, I'll not settle for less,

Cause you better believe, I deserve the best!