Poetry

Absentia

written by: Chrome

cou.ld've done much worse
but didn't
thinking maybe i shoul've

shud

shooduv

looking at things in perspective
and myself

i spin around and everything around

me at the centre
but so often i forget the last part

just see it all spinning


out of control i forget who's driving



"beyond reasonable need"


a publication with
"undue exploitation"

shall be deemed to be obscene

relative to what, and whom

circumstances pending, judgement vague
lacking understanding?
of mine or anyone else?

decapitation
on a bus
a year or two later walking outside
and smelling the flowers

legalese is the only english worth learning
liarese

cleverese, clever ease

and further down the hole of despair, blame and negativity

as if whining about it could make anything stay





beneath all this and above this barren land

i'm trying to learn who i am

need beyond law?

need beyond guilt or complaint?

need to express feeling lonely but no need to fix it, at all.

i lack the air and energy and respect and much care to express even

just had a moment there where i felt important

to myself if no one else

disappear in pacific wind

sounds good on paper

but no chance of execution

missing at the station, in the classroom, in the courtroom, at the office, in the parade, by the washroom, during the concert, next to the blonde in the coffeeshop and not coming back if there's any trace i was ever there or here or the other places mentioned before to begin with.


complaining is still words
morality, suffocation, taxes, eviction, 'economic collapse' gangs violence
control, monitoring my criminal activities, or possibly, and hopefully lack thereof, but the only way to prove it
when all acts are suspect
is immobility
reduced
irreduceable.

offense is redistribution of matter that's already there

but in this case
i believe
is a different quantity.

total utter sudden or incremental
absence

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Peering through the microscope, the nuclear physicist swore he'd seen something earlier, but now he wasn't sure.