Poetry

Disassociate

written by: OurSacredHonor

I disassociate
So I can forget my fate
Because deep down I hate this place
And all I want is to go home

So I go to another place in my head
And forget what is real
Try to feel more dead
Because pain is a sign
That says I'm still alive
And sometimes
I just don't want to be
Anymore
I'll sigh another lie
Breathe toxic, make you cry
Sometimes I wonder why I try
But still I do
Patiently waiting
While time's operating
Open on the table
Now to all I spill my insides

We all have just one skeleton
In the closet of our skin
It's kept under tight wraps
And no one should be let in
But every now and then
I allow you to rattle my bones
And when I go home alone
They groan and break from
The sticks and stones that were thrown
Crushed to dust I crumble
Hear me mumble senseless words
About another lost and lonely boy
Who never, ever was heard
That same old pattern
Stitched precisely
The replica of a scar
Drawn on from a far
While in the passenger seat of your car
And all the while

I disassociate
So I can forget my fate
Because deep down I hate this place
And all I want is to go home

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