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Inadequacy

written by: Sweet Insanity

unable to make heads or tails
of the feelings of inadequacy
that are now wrapped up in unrelenting worry
where I never feel right in my own skin
and I can never, never let go

so lost, so utterly, utterly lost
unable to move forward and scared to move back
I simply stand in place and realize that I hate myself a little more
always just a little more than the day before

unclench my jaw, relax my fingers, uncurl my toes
and force the air that shuddered out, back into my lungs
slowly into my lungs while they burn
and the scream that I refuse to release smolders in my throat
while the bile of my self disgust is pressed down,
while the corners of my lips are forced up into their fake assed smile

Each day I melt pitifully into a puddle of worry and fear
my resilience and strength that was once a force to be reckoned with
is non existent and I am now a pathetic worthless crybaby that can't take two steps without doubt or hesitiation

I was a warrior, a fearless being ready to fight and happy for the next battle and now...

I simply sit here
unable to make heads or tails
of the feelings of inadequacy
that are now wrapped up in unrelenting worry
where I never feel right in my own skin
and I can never, never let go

Comments:

Mon, Jul 18, 2011 at 8:13AM

Again...brilliant!

Mon, Jul 18, 2011 at 10:59PM

I'm glad you like it!

Thu, Jul 21, 2011 at 6:52AM

Sounds like me a few months ago...I love it so much that I hate it hehe (I hope you understand and not misunderstood me)!

Fri, Jul 22, 2011 at 12:11PM

LOL! I understand completely! I'm sorry that you had to feel that way, but I'm happy I was able to convey my thoughts!

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