Poetry

Be a Part of Me

written by: OurSacredHonor

Thoughts trapped in
Buried within
Won't escape my mind
Questions whose answers I can't find
Lost in the darkness of contemplation
Sickening process of self interrogation
Puts a strain
To retain
All that will mean something in the future, hold on to the past
How can I make something that fails to exist anymore last?
Lack of concentration my mind slips away
Day by day
I fade away
Into the background, into the dirt
Each time I'm hurt
I sink further into the well
This hell
That devours me
Empowers me
And pushes me to excel
I feel compelled
To move on to some
Melodramatic
Aerobatic
Thought process
That will impress
And distress and leave you in a feeling of duress
My success
Is through your confusion
And disillusion
What you read
Can mislead
Don't believe
I deceive
But I'll put you on to win you
Seeking that which is in you
But what I've said isn't me
A falsity
No reality
Some impostor within me
Takes control
Of this gaping hole
Which I call my soul
If he steals my nothing what do I have left
After this theft
Of my lack of meaning
From my misconstrued dreaming
I'm screaming to escape
Trying to stay awake
Fighting to get out
Needing to let it out
But I stuff it down again and again
As I dissect myself with my pen
But I need you in my mind
In order to find
What I am looking for
I don't know, I don't know I can't find the door
Trapped in a room as the walls move away
The room grows and I am all alone and I can't find my way
I run and I run
Towards the light from the sun
But it sets in the horizon and leaves me again
Here all alone with a pad and a pen
Writing trying to make sense of it all
Why do I fall?
Into these pits of despair in my life?
This anguish, this strife
It consumes me and it hurts, I can't take the pain
Why me? Why me? Why me? Where are you!?
I need you!
Don't leave me here with myself and my agony
I need you to be a part of me

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