Prose

you will never know( i'll never be free..)

written by: Tearful Angel

i wanted to write you something. i wanted to expose my inner deeper thoughts and free my self from the prision i formed within my heart. this prision had me bounded for so long that it almost became my heart. So i thought that if i sat her and wrote all of it to you, then i would feel free. but i don't. i have all the words but no way to express it. i guess thats always been the thing with you. you've always had the power to make me weak, speechless,afraid. not afraid of you, no i could never fear you. Afraid of what i feel or how much i feel for you. I'm a girl who keeps it all inside, someone who tries to be incontrol, and you have the power to change that. To make me loose all rational thinking and expose myself. You the only one who could make me pick up a pen and write my heart poy on paper.

I wanted to tell you this and so much more. i had the need to make you feel what i feel.i want there to be a "us". A you and me. but i lost the chance. Because i cant say these words to your face and i cant write you a clear story of my heart.

The irony is that the only way i can show you my love is to tell you, and yet being near you makes me hide in frear. So i guess the conclusion i have come to is that you'll probally never know how i feel.