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Hate myself a little more

written by: Sweet Insanity

Things aren't quite so bad now
"The worst is over" they all say
And yet I feel as though
Every day is the calm before another storm

A pit in my stomach
Growls and screams
My tear stained cheeks
Are burning but expecting more
My hands keep shaking
They cannot be stopped

All the while an overwhelming feeling;
Of dread, despair, disaster,
Looms over my head

And each day that passes
Makes me hate myself a little more

I try to shake the feeling
To put a smile on my face
I try to calm myself
But nothing will work

Little things begin to mean the world
The slightest thing can set me off
I lash out at others
'Cause I'm scared to lash out at myself
Then guilt swarms me
As I chase away those who care,
Those who dare; try to get close to me

And each day that passes
Makes me hate myself a little more

I used to see myself as strong
I was able to protect myself from
Others getting in, but mostly
I kept myself from getting out

Now I have no idea what to feel
Other then the dread
That who I am is wrong
And what I do is wrong
And how I feel is wrong

And each day that passes
Makes me hate myself a little more

Comments:

OurSacredHonor

Thu, Mar 29, 2007 at 4:12AM

By far one of, if not the best I've read from you. It has the persistence of the person who will hit you with a car, run over you, and then back up over you just to make sure. This doesn't fall victim to trailing off... it follows through and then some.

marebear86

Sat, Nov 10, 2007 at 10:09PM

wow. i love it. i can deffinatly relate to what this is saying

liavioleta

Fri, May 9, 2008 at 3:54PM

wow... just wow.
I can really relate to this.

Sweet Insanity

Fri, May 9, 2008 at 11:47PM

Thanks! I love this site because I'm learning that I'm not alone in my feelings, thoughts, or writings. I'm glad people can relate to my works and I'm glad you like them!

brokenfear137

Sat, Jul 19, 2008 at 10:12AM

"Then guilt swarms me
As I chase away those who care,
Those who dare; try to get close to me

And each day that passes
Makes me hate myself a little more"

I completely understand and can relate to this part. An amazing piece. Well done :)

Sweet Insanity

Sat, Jul 19, 2008 at 9:17PM

Thank you so much!!! I'm so glad you like it!

curlypinky

Mon, Aug 18, 2008 at 6:13PM

Very nice work I liked it a lot

Sweet Insanity

Mon, Aug 18, 2008 at 9:44PM

Great! Thanks!

Ti.anna

Fri, Sep 5, 2008 at 12:59AM

definately one of ure best works..i can feel the emotion so strong when i read it....favourtie favourite hehe.good work sweet insanity!