Prose

i'm not like you (sarah)

written by: babeestars

My vision smudged as I blinked back to life. My head still thumped but nowhere near as bad. The chair in the corner of my room, that I sat in to read, had someone sitting there. The cushions where moulded around there body as she curled into a ball, her feet pulled up across her chest. Logically I thought it would be Dan, sat by my side to make sure I was ok. But it wasn't. Her eyes blinked back tears. She saw me trying to sit and immediately sat properly on the chair. The door opened behind me, more people? "Sarah," I strong hand lifted me from under my arm, propping me up against the many pillows at my head. He handed me a glass of water and I sipped gratefully. "Why's she here?" I directed the question at Dan deliberately ignoring Katie's presence in the room.
"She was worried about you." He emphasised 'she' obviously unhappy at the way I referred to her.
"Well I want her to leave." And when he didn't respond I added "now."
"I just..." her voice trailed off as I glared at her. Fresh tears brimming in her eyes, it took all my strength to hide the fact I felt the same. "Let me see your ok," she whispered unsurely.
"Get out." I spoke firmly and forcefully, I surprised myself with how assertive I sounded. She stood and walked towards the edge of the bed, I turned away from her uneasily. I felt the weight of her arms around my shoulders, I stiffened in her grip, what was she doing? "I'm so sorry Sarah, I never ever meant to hurt you, especially like this. It hurts me every time I see you sad, and I hate myself for causing it. I miss you, you were always there for me, I don't know whether you realise just how much you meant to me, and believe it or not you knew more about me than most people, I guess that's cos you could read me like a book... because..." she paused, tears where in my eyes, I just wanted to wrap my arms round her neck, make everything ok again. "Because I'm like you."
"No!" I screamed pulling away from her, "no you're not! I'm not like you!" she stood back, I tried to get out of the bed, I pulled my legs over the side, I could see Dan watching me but making no effort to stop me, I guess he knew there was no point, I'd made my mind up and no one was going to get in my way. I stumbled to the door frame. Katie didn't stop me either, because she knew just as well as Dan, there was no point. My body went week and I completely collapsed, and it wasn't because I couldn't see, or my head was swimming. But because I just couldn't take anymore.