Prose
The Fight Within
written by: Electra
Before I begin this Piece I would like to say that this is one of the first time I am posting my Writings so I hope I don't Disappoint!
I often thought that the whole Struggle to find oneself is a big Joke-it only happens in Movies or really sappy love songs but boy was I wrong and to clarify this would not be the first time I was Incorrect about something.I usually am-I think it is because of that I normally don't speak out or take part in social activities perhaps some of You know how that feels because over the past few years I have come to the Conclusion that despite how alone I feel sometimes I am indeed not alone and that there are people out there who have been through this before and they can help me understand why this is so?And how to get rid of it or come to terms with it?
I think the reason I always felt alone or different was because I am completely inept at perceiving other peoples thoughts or emotions and when I don't know something I am naturally afraid of it but I this case The fear was of offending other people. I am not a coward but I am the not exactly the woman of the world either! I always have a hard time trusting people because of this quality-I don't know whether they really care about me or are they just leading me on?At times I get so frustrated at myself I could just scream-like a banshee!I have been struggling to find myself for a long time but with no avail-the only thing that makes sense is my ability to convert my messed up feelings into words and sentences!
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Comments:
I know exactly how you feel!!! I think you said it very well. One thing that has helped me has been writing. Getting your thoughts out there so you can be a refreshing purge, get it out and away from you. Then you can go back and look at them and try to analyze and start to figure out what works for you to fix it. This is definately a good step and again, well written!
I thought for a minute, maybe a little more, whether your prose was intended to be read and commented on, and well... I guess the "Comments" box answered me.
May I? (I do hope so, but if incase please do not read on)
Everything you described is all part of existence. And well, over coming it ... is living the time through. There are questions I find so many people lack to over look or simply consider. With a cache of circumstances that work and weave themselves into our lives, no matter what culture or sub-division we live in, the majority are searching for themselves, when really thats all you have.
the frustrations of a day - is you. The summer sun reflected from the dash board, on the bare skin of your arm - is you.
It is dangerous to know others thoughts, and more dangerous to find comfort from them. To forecast reactions and others feelings. this makes for a dull day to add to the minutes stuck in traffic, behind the desk or waiting in drive through.
So, during the "banshee moments" ask yourself
"What would You do?"
You ? you have power and passion with words and sentenses. But without it, you have just as much, and well sometimes thats not so easy to make sense of. But you know it makes you giggle inside, to wonder how you could underestimate youself sooo much, and forget, that You are all you need.
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