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Reconstruction

written by: Sweet Insanity

You destroyed me and there was nothing I could do about it
I was young and though I tried to be in control you overpowered me
Over the past few years I've thought I was over it
time and time again
I've overcome so much and to be honest, I'm proud of myself!

I thought that everything was ok now
And that you were finally completely out of my mind, out of my life
I'm realizing now that while I've dealt with almost all of it
There were some parts I missed:

The part of me that clenches my teeth while I sleep
and digs my nails into my palms
is you
The part of me that wakes up with stomachaches
and fear that I will fail another day
is you
The part of me that panics as if the world is coming to and end
and all I love is gone
is you
The part of me that buries myself in work
because I'm terrified to live, to let what really matters matter
is you
The part of me that pushes everyone and everything away
so I can hide
is you

I am though with you! I want you out of my life forever!
I want to LIVE! To LOVE!
To Love myself in a way that I've never allowed myself to love
Without blaming myself for every mistake
Without ridiculing and putting myself down

That part of me was you. And now you're Gone!

Comments:

Sun, Aug 31, 2008 at 6:53PM

but are they really gone? Beautiful piece....reminds me of a girl called NowImKaytie.

Mon, Sep 1, 2008 at 9:58AM

I hope so! Glad you like it!

Mon, Sep 1, 2008 at 12:26PM

I just want to say that aside from published authors u r my fav writer please don't stop writing and have you thought about going public with ur talent?

Mon, Sep 1, 2008 at 2:59PM

WOW! Thank you so very much! That's the best compliment I've ever gotten! I'm so honored that you like my work as much as you do! While I appreciate the thought, happily this is as public as I will ever go. I'll keep writing, I hope you continue to enjoy!

Fri, Sep 19, 2008 at 2:19PM

Great job! =] Electra is write - you are very talented, and I'm glad you feel open to post your work here!

As always, Keep Writing and I'll keep reading. =]

Sat, Sep 20, 2008 at 9:18AM

Matt, You're awesome! Thank you so much!!!!

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