Prose

It's all so confusing!

written by: Electra

It can be really confusing watching other people succeed!On one hand you want to be happy for them because you think they deseve it,on the other hand you keep on thinking why them and not me and that is where the jealousy or the self-doubt starts.It's gets harder when those successful people are your friends-you feel really horrible for not feeling good for them and at the same time you keep on thinking that ou are just as good as them then why aren't you the you one succeeding.And then it get's worse when you actually do succeed at something and they don't.If you talk about it then you think you are hurting your friends and at the same time you want to brag because those oppportunities for you are very scarce.We all want praise and admiration and even though I am aware of that fact I still feel bad.I know many of you will say that Iam jealous but it's not jealousy I feel it's just sadness because I keep thinking 'I will never be where they are,no matter how much I try because I am not good enough'.Is that wrong?