Prose

truely rely on

written by: babeestars

What do you do when the one person you thought you could rely on lets you down? When the one person you thought you could trust tells your secret?
"I am here if you ever want any help ok?"
So thats how it started. I believed her.
"yeah I get that,"
Everything I said she understood.
"thats exactly what i do"
Turns out we're more alike than we thought.
"I completely understand."
And i started to think maybe she really did.
"I swear you can talk to me, i wont say anything."
I started to think that I had someone there for me after all.
"I want you to know you can talk to me."
"I'm pleased you talk to me."
"It's weird you are so much like I was."
"I mean it when I say I'm here I will be here anytime to talk ! ur my chum!"
And so that's how it went on. I trusted her. I believed she cared. I believed she was my friend.
"sorry for delay"
Then it changed.
I blamed myself.
"you dont have to be sorry, its ok I promise"
I was scared that if I said something wrong I would loose her.
"sorry for the delay"
And so it continued.
But I still believed she cared. That she was there. I guess I asked for to much.
"so sorry! I wont let you down!"
But by the time she said that it was too late. Because she had let me down. Maybe I wanted more than she could give, or maybe we are not what we want each other to be.
"sometimes you realise who you can truely rely"
She said that to me. It was one of the last things. And she was right. I'm starting to think the only person I can rely on is myself.